| Eeep.
First off.. i lied. I guess I'll update here occasionally. 
Anywho..this is something i DONT normally do, esp. with this xanga.. but.. i semi like parts of this one, and want to make it decent. Lol
So, read it over, tell me what i should change, what you like, what you dont like, what it sounds like its about... anything at all. anything. Lol
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poor thing, its okay, we know he took you by surprise,
pulling the carpet out from beneath your feet,
the foundation you'd spent half a year building,
tell me, what will you do, now that you cant blame it on him?
"please god, i cant take this, cant sit here and face me,"
dont you smile, thinking back on the irony of that?
saw your face when he wanted to talk, almost like he knew..
Little did you know, it wasnt the answer you thought youd get
When you said this was too much, and you couldnt sleep at night,
did you wonder what he would think? There was no way you could know,
a dead mans eulogy, twisted around to get you more attention,
must have been like a slap in his face to say you couldnt hear it..
fuck addiction, it was just an excuse to hide behind
another persons thoughts, too painful to show your own
you couldnt risk being rejected by someone close to you
but yet, it was okay for you to break that night in front of them?
you mind wont let your heart reveal the thoughts of ending this you had,
or maybe it was a concrete fantasy of what he did everynight
hard to tell if you were alive or dead, but its the most you ever were,
the only time ive seen you honest, dropped the wall down for a short time
and now even that options gone, lost to the logic in your head,
you thought he'd lied, itll be the last time you call anyone on it,
the shock on your face when you heard, you swore you didnt know he died,
close your eyes, are you ashamed of what you did? |
